Tired Mummy

Blogging has becoming a luxury to me ever since Denz come along into the picture. I'm currently busy juggling between work and caring for my 2 kids. I used to blog at night when Wenz is with my mum or asleep but I could no longer do that as by the time I lured Denz to sleep, I gotto do some reading to Wenz or do some other activities for bonding.

I have sooo little ME time and by the time I have some moment of peace for reflection, I realised I couldn't combat with the feeling of tiredness to keep my eyes open for blogging. Many a time, I'll juz check emails and shut down my mac as I know I still gotto wake up for night feedings and milk expressing. Actually I dun have much sleep too.

Well, it's not that I'm complaining as I'm doing all this happily and uphold my responsibility. Juz find that 24 hours a day is really insufficient for me as I sleep only about 4 hours a day. I do feel lousy at times especially when comes to bonding with the kids.

Time juz ain't enuf to be shared especially back to work already. If I spent time with Denz, Wenz will get jealous asking for attention. I did involve this little missy in whatever things I did with Denz but she juz simply wants even more attention. If I spend more time with Wenz, I will feel guilty towards Denz as he is so tiny and I feel I should care for him more. Juz hoping I could strike a balance real soon.