Happy Childrens' Day

Today is Childrenss' Day and Wenz has no school. I think she still dunno what is holiday. Everyday is like holiday to her.

Ever since Denz join our family, the arrangement and routine has changed. My mum will cook Wenz' meals for lunch and dinner, FL will come, collect her meal boxes and bring Wenz to school, fetch her back to his house after school, ML will feed her and make her sleep, my nephew, Ben will play with her and ML bath her and FL will bring her back to our house at night.

I guess she knows the changes just that she couldn't express out. I dunno how is she taking to it. According to my in laws, they are pretty pleased with her behaviour over at their place. She is like an angel over there finishing up her meal, sleep on her own and listening to their instructions. However, she's like a different person upon reaching home turning into a devil showing us all her tantrums and refusing to listen to any instructions. I always refer this to jealousy.

We have no choice but to rope in the help of my in-law cos when I return to work, this situation will resume in order to lighten the load of my mum looking after 2 kids. If she can guai guai listen and obey, my mum will be able to handle. However, Wenz will give problem in all area from bathing to playing and the worse thing is she simply refuse any solid food and we just couldn't feed her with her running about. On the other hand, she seems happy playing over at my in-law's place and she even refused to come home at times. Food intake is also okay. But the sad part is whenever she sees me upon reaching home, she will say "dun want mummy", "dun want didi", "mummy go work" etc.. It is so sad hearing this but she only say and she will go back to her usual self after a short while. There was once she told my ML that she wanna stay with them, dun want to go home and even say I love you 奶奶. Oh my....I'm not jealous over the fact that she says I love u but i din noe she is capable of saying such thing cos she wun say I love You automatically at home unless I initiate 1st. Hopefully she can understand that to send her over doesn't mean we dun love her anymore.

Our Happy Family!!

We finally manage to find time to take a picture together as a family. Mummy still looks fat with at least another 10kg to shed off. As mummy has decided to 'close factory', she has no more excuse not to lose weight this time round. 加油吧媽咪! (",)

SUPPLY > DEMAND

I have been struggling between the options of direct latching Denz or solely expressing my breast milk out. After giving much consideration, I have decided to pump out instead of latching Denz on. My gynae of course disagree with me but after Wenz' episode, I was rather afraid of the consequences. During Wenz' time, I was so determined to latch her on and she was drinking well but when it comes to the point feeding her breast milk in bottle, she rejected. Everyone in the house has a hard time getting her to drink since then and she even went on hunger strike. Moreover, I'm a failure whenever comes to latching.

Now after expressing out, anyone in the house can juz feed Denz and I won't have the worry to train him using bottle when it's time to return to work in 3 months time. Hubby also gets involve and enjoy feeding him. On the other hand, Wenz also can drink some to get extra immunity. I find that this is the best option. :)

I realise I dun have as much determination as 1st time especially during my 1st week whereby I experienced blocked ducts and my nipples and aerola were super painful loh. However after one week of hard work clearing milk ducts cum establishing milk supply day & night, I achieve at least 120ml per pump and I have an excess of 14oz of milk sitting in the fridge right now.

Now my supply surplus the demand and I even mix some into Wenz' milk. Luckily she couldn't tell the difference and drank everything. My storage bottles also running out, think I gotto get some more bottles when I go out for my gynae's apptm tmr.

Denz is 2 weeks old :)

Look how much Denz has grown. Has he change much for the past 2 weeks? To me he's still the same but hubby commented he did grow in length and size. Perhaps I have been facing him all day long that I really couldn't tell the difference.

Denz is 2 weeks old which means I have survived the torment of not washing hair for 2 weeks. As I have an appointment with my gynae tomorrow, I negotiate with my mum and she allows me to 'overhaul' myself today. Whoppee....what a relief!! Feeling so fresh and clean after bathing. :)

I notice I can take it better for this confinement compared to the previous one. So fast.....my confinement will end in another 2 weeks plus time. The next joyous occasion will be Denz' Full Month! (",)

Thanks Serene!

Denz received a parcel today and it's from Aunty Serene's family. It's a smart Polo Ralph checker top with Osh Kosh denim jeans. Wow, haven't full month already got gift coming in..........

It's a little too big now but I'm sure he'll wear it when he's of the right size. Thanks Serene for ur well-wishes! Really appreciate it.

Denz' Umbilical Cord Drop

Today Denz' Umbilical Cord has dropped off during morning bath session. Finally after waited for 12 days. I rmb Wenz was around 8 days but she 'kicked off' herself and not dropped naturally. My fren ever told me the longer the cord takes to drop the more stubborn one will be. Oops! 12 FULL days which means Denz will be one stubborn fella as well?? Hmm.... hopefully not! Not something worth looking forward to. :)
Godpa came visiting earlier. Denz looks so petite in his arms. Actually Denz has already grown in size compared to his birth weight. He has chubb-up quite abit liao. I hope he can continue to grow healthily and constantly. Godpa came not only to visit Denz but Wenz as well. His ultimate intention is have an interesting game session with hubby lah, kekeke....

Sad News.....

Juz got updatez from my colleague thru email that the baby who was successfully being saved by the gynae is still in ICU. His brain was affected to some degree and his limbs are weak. He couldn't swallow nor suckle and is non-responsive. Furthermore, the bills are already chalking up to nearly 20K. My eyes became teary when I read these. Hopefully his mummy will watch over her own son and bless him to be out of danger real soon.

I appeal to people out there who read about this to pray for the good and recovery of this newborn. It's really saddening for this family to lose the mummy and I really dun wish to see another life being taken away.

A Touching Truth!!

For both my pregnancies, my FL went to the temple secretly to pray for the well-being of both mother and child. He told my ML that my tummy was so big that he see liao he's afraid. It's really touching to hear this when my ML told me. He even went back to temple to thank the god after I have successfully delivered. I really appreciate FL's gesture for doing such a thing.

Actually, they din ask for more grandchildren nor stress the importance of gender which most of my friends faced. In fact, they dun mind juz having Wenz as their only grandchild. It was however our decision to give Wenz a sibling cos I feel 2 is good. He told my ML 2 is enuf, asking me not to give birth liao cos to my FL, child labour is a thin line between life-and-death.

I was greatly affected by the news of my colleague passed away when I received a call from my good fren at work on the day I was discharged from the hospital. This news is too sudden for me to stomach and accept. I am still thinking of it and couldn't believe it till now. I rmb seeing her b4 going on leave. Two of my colleagues came to visit me yesterday and I tried to get some info on the cause of her death. She died due to AMNIOTIC FLUID EMBOLISM.

"A rare but frequently fatal complication of labor, this condition occurs when amniotic fluid embolizes from the amniotic sac and through the veins of the uterus and into the circulatory system of the mother. The fetal cells present in the fluid then block or clog the pulmonary artery, resulting in heart attack. This complication can also happen during pregnancy, but usually occurs in the presence of strong contractions."

Her doctor managed to save the baby thru emergency c-sect but the adult turned purple within 2 minutes when the amniotic fluid leaked into her bloodstream. I was devastated hearing this and feel so sorry for her elder daughter who is so attached to mummy. I couldn't imagine her life without mummy for this poor little gal.

It's really a blessing that both my pregnancies was smooth and safe, and I can still blog healthily right now. This news has definitely shaken me and make me cherish what I have now. I really hope the family of the deceased can be strong and tide over this difficult period of time.

A Changed Person

My hubby has become a changed person after Denzel is out. Of course is a change for the BETTER. He is more hands-on looking after the 2 kids now. As he took half month's leave to accompany me during my confinement, he volunteered to take over the 'night shift' duty of feeding Denz. He send Wenz to school in the day and bring her down for play session. He's trying his very best to keep Wenz company so as not to let her feel neglected. One thing that does not change from between 1st confinement and now is he's running to and fro topping up things in the house when there is a shortfall. Whatever it is I am happy with his new change. I can see him taking up new roles and getting more involved.

On the other hand, I am so busy establishing milk supply. OMG I have blocked milk ducts when I got home. *sigh* I can only blame on my laziness as I dun wanna breastfeed in the hospital so I gotto work triple hard to get the ducts unclogged. Pumping at least 8X a day really tires me out. I manage to get 120ml of milk after few days of hard work. Well, shall see how long can I hold to sustain the determination to breastfeed this time round.

I only feel guilty towards Wenz as she yearns for me to carry her, play with her and bring her out but I can achieve so little with my recuperating body. She can sense a change in the house and has not been very obedient at home. She even went of hunger strikes, rejecting her usual food totally. The moment she sees didi drinks milk, she also says she wants milk. Some of her actions is a tell-tale signs of jealousy and everyone in the house is handling it tactfully so as not to hurt her. I hope this phase will get over soon.

Denz' 1st Studio Foto

Mummy received my 1st 'studio-style' photo package from Peter Pan Studio yesterday. It was very nicely taken and this package is a new concept. It was so much different from my jie-jie's time. They can even print my name and some birth info on it.

Swee swee right??

Everyone is so pleased with the end product. Ah ma said I look very leng chai leh. Mummy even thot of asking the studio if they can do the same thing to jie-jie's fotos 2 years back (",)